My life without me

I went few days ago to watch a movie called "My life without me". It's about a 24 years old girl, married with 2 children, who discovers she has cancer and has 2 months to live. So she wrote a list of things to do before she dies. Typical story...but for some reason it felt so real.

She starts her last 2 months journey by saying: "It feels like my whole life has been a dream...and i just woke up from that dream".

If you look at her to-do list, you'll find typical drink/dance, travel, kiss another man and so on type of things...However, most of it was planning for her life without her...for after she passes away...things like finding a wife for her husband that her daughters will like, recording tapes for her kids' birthdays, making sure everything will be up and running after she's dead.

Then i remembered "The Bucket List" movie... 2 old strangers, who also have few months to live, met in the hospital and decided to leave behind their families and friends and go on with their own crazy to-do list.

Two completely different approaches to preparing to die. the girl wanted to make it all better to her family and friends...wanted to see how would life go on without her.she became much less selfish, much more extravert, and the people that she loved the most mattered the most. However the 2 old men felt they've missed on so many things in life and wanted to do all of that in the few days they had left, caring less about what they'll be leaving behind.

In some twisted kind of way, knowing when and how u will die gives u a flavor of what life is really all about. I wonder if i will ever have the chance to know that, or wake up from that "dream" just like the girl. and when i do i wonder what would "really" matter?

furaha xxx