Touch base

Today im devastated...
you know when u want something just really want something. really really focused on THAT damn thing?? and then u just dont get it? u know how it feels? you must know how it feels. im sure everyone of us has been through something like this whether its a phone call u were waiting form ur loved one, or a grade ur waiting for, or a job u applied for, or a barbie for ur birthday, or a visa for a trip u ve planned or or or...

well today i did not get my thing. and i was devastated.

normally i would just be like : tough luck for me! next time i ll do better or get what i want... but instead today i lost it. and why did i loose it? it took me the whole day to realize why...its because i did not 'touch base' with myself. i was so focused on what i want that i forgot all about ME. all i wanted was that thing...and i lost my mind focusing on it.

what i am trying to say is one should never loose their mind but to one's self. when i finally calmed myself down and touched base with my emotions and reasoned my behaviour i realized that things can be so so so so so so much easier when u have your own self next to yourself. yes my family and friend do help. but they cover the wound and cant heal it. only you can heal it.

coming back home i decided to put my cell phone and ipod away, close my book and magazines and just not think! just look inward and forget all about my thing and my surrounding. the things i realized on this way back, the same route i take every single day, was just amazing. i finally found the medical center im looking for, noticed there is a locks shop right next to my house (why is a locks shop so important you ask? well its because im paranoid if i ever loose my keys how would i change the lock of my house door), i was glad to know there is a yoga center much closer to home, happy to see the new yellow and violet flowers hanged on all the street lights which i ve never noticed before, realized that the little supermarket next to my house which i never go to actually closes late at night and would be ideal for late dinners and so on...

when u look inward, the outside is just much nicer and calmer and makes sense. and actually that THING wouldnt matter that much. because its just a thing...and no matter what u still got YOU:)

so this is a reminder to always always touch base...

furaha x